The heart of Jesus towards sexual sin and trauma
If you have ever committed adultery or fornication, been sexually abused or trafficked, involved in prostitution, or opened the door to pornography, then you know the overwhelming self-hatred that comes in the wake of these sins and traumas. Whether you were the perpetrator or the victim, you become a casualty of the devil’s scheme to bring death and destruction through misuse and abuse of our bodies. If you find yourself reading these pages and are still trapped in self-hatred, I want you to hear these words:
The scribes and the Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught in adultery, and placing her in the midst, they said to him, “Teacher, this woman has been caught in the act of adultery. Now in the Law, Moses commanded us to stone such women. So, what do you say?” This they said to test him, that they might have some charge to bring against him. Jesus bent down and wrote with his finger on the ground. And as they continued to ask him, he stood up and said to them, “Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at her.” And once more he bent down and wrote on the ground. But when they heard it, they went away one by one, beginning with the older ones, and Jesus was left alone with the woman standing before him. Jesus stood up and said to her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?” She said, “No one, Lord.” And Jesus said, “Neither do I condemn you; go, and from now on sin no more.” (Mark 8:3-11)
Maybe you feel like I felt when I finally realized what I had done and how I had sinned not only against my husband and children, but against my Beloved Savior who had given His life for me. Maybe you haven’t told anyone about what you have done or what was done to you because you are so afraid of what people will think of you. But let the words of Jesus to the wounded and humiliated woman who was probably standing in front of him wrapped only in a piece a cloth, bring you comfort. The One Who loves you most has already declared your forgiveness and restoration. You will find that bringing your pain to the light will allow you to heal and remove the hold that the tormenting voices have over you. I do advise you, however, to talk to someone who has a track record of spiritual maturity and depth in the Word, and who is trained in healing, deliverance, and counseling. They will help you process your pain, repurpose your self-hatred and lead you to healing and freedom.